A Quote I Like

God is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh.

--Voltaire

I'm Back and Better Than Never

What a bastard of a dry spell for blogging and other productivity that was.

Thanksgiving weekend in Toronto a thought kept busting into my mind like a last-minute Christmas shopper into a line: "Don't let me die here, don't let me die here, don't let me die here." It being such a pushy and subjective thought (For someone who loves Montreal as I do Toronto is such an easy mark, but with a little imagination and effort there's no objective reason it should be considered a gulag), I just had to think, "This is a very important bulletin from me to me", listen to it, and not move there for any indeterminate length of time. This decision though solid was very hard on me to make. It led to trouble and then a break up with Jesse.

I was so busy writing to him in the aftermath I didn't have any juice left over to write in here. What a waste of time and energy, too. I should know myself well enough by now to know that when such sadness about someone seizes my heart, that person has little to say to me, and monographomania for them seizes my fingers, everything is well on its way down the tubes.

I still wake up crying many mornings, but at least my clit has recently made me some collect calls from the hinterland, and I feel sprightly enough upstairs to write a few things in here again. I must be recuperating. And at least Montreal seems better than ever.